I see lots of people around me who also live like this: living and acting in ways that are not their best true selves. They are possessive and controlling; snippy and gossipy; combative, argumentative, and always preparing for the worst. That's not who God created them to be. That's not who God created any of us to be.
But I think that so many of these people, just like me, live with a bucketful of fears. Fear of death; fear of failure. Fear of loss; fear of change; fear of the future; fear of the past. For I know that in their deepest places, God created them--and me--to be loving and compassionate. It's just that the fears get in the way.
What are the fears you live with? Have you ever stopped to notice how they affect you? Do they push their way into the midst of your relationships, changing you into someone you're not sure you even recognize?
One of the phrases that is repeated in the New Testament, over and over again--from the mouths of angels to the mouth of Jesus--is this: "Fear not." You might say, "Fear not. That's easy for someone else to say, but they're not living in our shoes. They don't know the way it is for us."
And you would be right. But, I guess when it gets right down to the nitty gritty, that's what faith is all about. If we are going to believe in God and trust in Jesus, we have to believe it all--even words like these that just smack of patronization. "Don't be afraid," is God's call to us, and God's promise to us. And, as Robert Munsch says, "A promise is a promise."
So, my friends, I invite you to join me in naming one--just one--fear you struggle with. And, once we've named that one fear, let's offer it up to God, over and over again. And as we give up that fear, let's take on the mantra, 'Don't be afraid.' Or, perhaps you could try, 'A promise is a promise.' Or, find your own mantra that will somehow remind you that your fear is real, and yet so is your faith. And with God, all things are possible.
Since I can remember I have struggled with fear. Fear of academics, that I won't succeed or pass the grade. Fear of not being able to work to provide for myself and family. Fear of death after a cancer diagnosis. Fear of leaving my child alone without a mother to learn and lean on when she needs it the most. Fear that I have not done 'good' and be blessed with eternal life. But as I have gone through all of these things I can say 'I am still here'. I have learned that God has given me the abilities to be able to cope and that I am a stronger person. I have to (need to) believe that God has given me everything. My strength, my passion, my conviction and once I realized that and given it up to God, I have found peace and a new strength. And then it becomes a circle just like my wedding ring, a bond that can never be broken. Yes fears can hinder us but also push us to seek the one who will always be there for us not matter what. We just have to have the faith and courage to seek him out and oh what a peaceful comfort that is! What a friend we do have in Jesus! He has been my rock, comforter and friend since a small child. He has seen all my tears, triumps and falls but he is there cheering for me, always in my corner. Thanks be to God.
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